Sun Run Sunday

With much nervousness I approached my first Sun Run yesterday.

Turns out I am an okay runner, and I finished at 1 hour 3 minutes!!!

Can't wait till next year!

And since this has a picture too, I am totally counting it on the "Picture a week" thing.

Heck yah!

Picture of the Week!

Well, here is my first post in this picture series...I am doing this with Swell, check her blog out!

Here I am (well, my feet) ready for a run! 10k today, maybe 11 if I decide on the extra loop.

I think I am slowly melting

Well, not melting exactly, but my mind feels like it is dissolving out of my body.

Is this what happens with too much stress? Cortisol is actually an acid and it eats you from the inside out?

I am crazy. Well, I feel crazy anyways.

And outside it is still raining...

Exes

So I was just told by my eldest that "Dad's in town and will be living just a half hour away."

What?

WHAT?

I would be lying if I said I was at all happy about this development. We left all that violence and garbage behind when we left him and now he is going to be one town over?

Fuck my life.

Another day

I need to get out of my funk. I need to keep thinking positively and realize that hard times don't last forever.

It has been...difficult lately. I have zero motivation to do things that I enjoy, unless that includes hermitting. Now, I know the symptoms of depression and when my mind starts with its whole "let's think the worst" thing.

Good thing I am still seeing my doctor about this.

Another good thing is that my kid is turning human again...now that has been a long time coming.

Thumbs up for hope!

...my goodness that is sickening.

Burnt out, bitches

Yeah.  I think I am. 

Can't concentrate, can't stop thinking about all the things I have to do...Only 3 more weeks and I'm done class for this semester, and I only have to worry about kids, spouse and work. 

I am hanging on because I don't know what else to do!!

Free time isn't free, I suppose.

Eh. 

Did I mention my birthday is coming up?  That at least makes me happy.  Ish. 

Getting my writing boots back on.

So. 

I haven't written in a long time.  Not just blogging, but written any short stories, poetry, ANYTHING for a few years now. 

I used to write all the time, as a way to express myself - and somehow in the day-to-day trials of life it was just...left...back there...where "back there" is around 2006. 

So recently I have been asked by Steph (Ordinairy Girl) to collaborate on a screenplay!  I wasn't sure at first that my writing boots still fit - but after receiving the first character descriptions it just flowed. 

I forgot how great it felt.  I forgot what a release it is! 

The wifey thought it was a great idea too....I don't get a lot of time to myself, and now doing something that I really love has improved my outlook!  And really - it has only been about a week and a half.  Really. 

It doesn't take long to get me really excited about a project.  Maybe 3% of a second.  Yes, that long.  So when I was first asked I nearly hyperventilated I was so excited.  Have you ever hyperventilated?  Not pleasant.  But at the same time you feel so darn pleased that someone asked YOU to help THEM write a SCREENPLAY!

Okay, not you, me.  Heh. Or maybe you do and you now feel a strange sort of kinship with me...

How do you make an evil frowny face?  I think I am going to need that to put in my arsenal....